I have started this blog a few times, but it seems I have been more distracted these days with just living life. I feel so good, that it just doesn’t seem right to sit and blog about it!
Over the course of the this last year and a half, I have decided to “create” and to invest in life in a new way.
Back in August of 2011, I knew chemo was going to knock me out for awhile, so I decided to make projects along the way to at least feel I had accomplished something. I have stitched and quilted so many things now, I’ve lost track, but I’ve got things to point to that reminded me over and over again that I could choose what I wanted to focus on. I’ve intentionally stretched myself with learning new things to keep those neurons firing. And as a P.S. to this section, I thank God for restoring my vision which was getting awfully blurry during chemo.
When I discovered that my doc was stopping chemo in early 2012, I began thinking of what I could do in my daily life to invest in people, and I just had this intense desire to be around LIFE. I regained my strength by summer, and started volunteering at a pro-life crisis pregnancy center nearby. It is a mystery, but God does use helping others as a way to get our minds off of ourselves. People who walk into the clinic are often alone or without moral support, and they appreciate the time we give them. We get through the issue they came for quite quickly actually, but it is the time and space we provide for conversations that leave them with hope that just isn’t that easy to find any place else.
The clinic offers free pregnancy counseling and ultrasounds, referrals to agencies and organizations that help them through the course of the pregnancy, as well as other services that encourage women to grow in living a healthy lifestyle. We provide free diapers and formula as the need arises, give them homemade baby afghans from women in local churches, and a small gift bag to bless them as they move into this phase of their lives. Being around these young women, and helping them give someone else a chance at life has made this phase of my faith walk so satisfying.
One additional thing this clinic offers is a non-judgmental environment. We do have women who walk away who cannot deal with the thought of carrying a baby to term (we do not do abortions or give referrals for abortions), but the director tells us to focus on the woman herself in hopes that the door will be open to her if she needs help later on. And, in the thirty years this clinic has been in operation, women have returned because they sensed that people cared.
As a point of information, I am still on cancer fighting drugs that don’t tire me out and are keeping me in the fight. The tumor marker has ticked up a bit, but my doctor is not concerned as of yet. I know the greater power is in the prayers you offer, and as someone recently prayed, “ a permanent remission this time.” The boldness in elderly woman’s voice bolstered my spirit and reminded me of the gracious miracles I’ve already seen. Faith IS the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Heb. 11:1.
This song captures the joy and purpose I have found through this season. It is fun, yet full of Scripture. My thanks to my sweet Charity for giving me this recording way back at the beginning of all of this. I hope you listen and enjoy. Copy and paste into browser window, because I’m not sure if I can successfully create a link!